Prayer. Certainty. Praise.”

This reflection came from the small moments I take to meditate in the morning, or the digestion of life lessons when I’m doing pilates on the mat to music. Often when I turned my attention to what those three words really mean, I can reflect back to moments that they were all present. I remember when I prayed to feel free and happy without worrying about somebody else, now that’s just a reality.

That’s the funny thing about reality, you won’t even see the opportunities that are there if you are not conditioned to recognize them. It could pass by and we would have missed out on a realization, a reflection and a thought that led to the next phase of our life.

Prayer

The way the light hits the floor that looks so beautiful. No line to your favourite cafe when you open the door. Beautiful mornings with the windows open, your favourite song in the background. These are what I consider moments of modern day “prayer”, small moments in between all the demands of life. They are moments you couldn’t have crafted up as a checkmark on your to do list. They are made by being mindful of your present moment.

During this time, I find myself with curiosities and ideas. Even questions about how the universe works, or whats next for me. Often these questions are ones I can’t yet answer. It won’t come from thinking harder or trying to figure it out. One may get quiet moments to recognize that it’s there, to feel something greater at work. A purpose, desire, mission.

Certainty

Naval says “not wanting something is just as good as having it”

I say “not needing something is your sign you will have it”

I often find myself thinking wanting it without needing it is the very thing that draws it to me.

I believe this represents certainty perfectly well. What can I get so clear on that it feels like I have it, that I know it’s coming. Manifestation is not just feeling like you have it, thinking like it and it happening. It is believing it is happening without anyone or anything outside of you that tells you it is.

The external reality you can touch, smell, feel and see is the final creation of your mind. The small changes you make on your self development won’t always get reflected right away. Trust that everything you are doing is leading directly to that outcome, or an even better version of it.

Praise

I was watching a Modern Wisdom vlog months ago. Chris was finishing his North American tour with Vancouver being the last stop. At the end of the vlog, Chris and his best friend (who toured with him) are sitting at the edge of the stage reflecting. Speaking on where he is now, who he was, and how far he has come with the ones he loves beside him.

This is a moment I think about when I hear the word Praise.

Praise is a state of mind. It is being able to see what you have already created and appreciate it. To celebrate it. I can reflect on a moment of my own life where praise came in quietly. It’s not always loud and celebratory. Sometimes they are whispers in your ear, answers to questions you had. The moments you see something from a different perspective. When you can wish well for the person that hurt you, forgive your parents for not being perfect, give more than you thought.

Sometimes they are outward moments:

Seeing your vision turn into a reality, making the perfect meal in your kitchen, finishing a hard workout. Laying down in your fresh sheets after a long day.

The mindset of praise can always be found.

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Yes, change requires a death of the old self. Not just a pivot, but a full on grieving of who you used to be. Your new life does not come with the old shitty habits you used to have. The ones you know deep down that you should let go of, but somehow cannot get it together to let it go. This isn’t just physical habits, but our self perception and mental models.

Mental Models

I will share with you what my version of a mental model is: a way of thinking and a pattern of belief that generates your understanding of the world.

Here’s an example of a poor mental model “This circumstance will end up like xyz because in the past it always ended up like xyz”

Let’s replace it with a better mental model “This circumstance is the unknown, it is unfamiliar and not dependant on the past but what my behaviour reflects right now”

Whether you see it consciously or not, you are a thriving product of your own mental models. Some you did not choose, some you are simply going with the flow with without even realizing it, unaware of it’s deep effects on your life. When we choose a mental model (a way of thinking about things) we upgrade our sense of reality when we filter circumstances through it.

Self Perception

In self image psychology, they talk about how even if you got plastic surgery to change your whole face you either would or wouldn’t feel differently about yourself.

Self image psychology is rooted in this idea: Your reality will always reflect what you think you are.

It doesn’t matter what you went out there and changed, your entire looks? Your entire life? A career change? Your instagram? If you see yourself through one lens, you cannot escape that lens by changing everything about you or around you. Simply, we only believe information that is equal to our current state of being. We cannot think past it.

The solution to this is quite simple but not without its challenges. Reverse engineer it, become the version of you that has it already and reality should reflect it back to you. This isn’t some woo woo out of the box crazy shit. It’s simple; your behaviours, thoughts and actions will line up with the version of you that has everything you want. You will do it with ease.

Physical Habits

This goes perfectly into… physical habits. It is also the reason that I am writing this section last. While you can change all the physical habits you want, you may still never see yourself differently if you do not update your mental models and your self image.

Physical habits are the final boss. They are the last reflection of your reality. They are your actions that is a demonstration of who you are. Physical habits do not have to be rigid, they have the ability to flow with where you are in life.

If I had one piece of advice in this area it would be this:

Have one or two things you can fall back on. Those constants in your life. They ground you, support you and make you feel like you have come home to yourself.

This is my recipe to self change. I hope it served you in some way.
Love, Hanna x

Intuition is a spiral. It craves evolution. Moving forward towards the kind of ‘you’ you know you are deeply meant to be. It is a spiral.

I often refer to this when I come up against the same old feelings of self doubt, victimization, anxiety, and lack. These are the pattern of addiction I have. My nervous system is so used to feeling these things that without even knowing it, I want that hit so bad. The ego mind wants me to keep being in this same state. It wants me to feel the exact same way. It wants the outcome to be the exact same as it always has been.

One thing I don’t think is discussed enough in the personal growth industry is how uncomfortable it is. You will come up against your ego mind everyday. You will shed layers of who you used to be. You will evolve into someone you didn’t think you’d be able to be. The simple truth is — this is all very uncomfortable.

My intuition is the part of me that I had once thought I lost (or maybe it was never even found). It does want the best. It wants to move me forward in life. It wants me to just charge ahead with grace.

I write this as a little letter to my past self, me today, and to you. The me that did not know how to fail fast. The me that didn’t know how to pick herself up after business and career changes. The me who did not know any better but to end up in the same place I have always been. The version of you too, that gives up when something feels “off” and “wrong”

This feeling is the sign you are doing something right. This is the sign that you are moving ahead. This is a sign that things are changing for you. This is the moment that things will turn upside down for you.

Some overall bite sized things to think about —

• When something doesn’t work out. Trust that you are competent enough to be successful elsewhere.

• There is no shortage of consumers and audience. You can create anything.

• The thoughts you always think that lead you to the same place are just the ego mind.

• Take action on the things that will move you forward. Even if you don’t know where that place is.

• It’s okay to not know fucking anything.

• Go into business for yourself.

• If it scares you just a little, thats probably a sign to move forward with it

• Discomfort is the exact thing you want, it means you aren’t the same.

• Gratitude is the magnet to more of what you want

I used to think I wrote for you, the person reading this. I’ve come to realize that the reason why any of us create art is not for the audience. It is because we cannot bare the burden of what it would be like to not create. Because we couldn’t stop if we tried. Because creativity is a endless source that constantly streams out into everything we do.

While I have been in a personal timeline of creating lots of different opportunities for myself I hope you do this next thing for the both of us:

Go out and fucking get it. I promise you don’t need to think about it anymore. The answers have always been within.

- love hanna x

But you?
You see the private work.
The shifts no one claps for.
The new beliefs you’re testing quietly, daily.
The thoughts you no longer give energy to.
The way you’re starting to speak less and embody more.

Others only see who you’ve previously been.
They see who you currently are.
They cannot see exactly what you’re becoming.

Journal Prompts for Personal Reflection

WHO ARE YOU IN PRIVATE?

Here are some questions I ask myself upon reflection of who I’ve been lately:

• What do my inner thoughts look like lately? What have I been thinking as an automatic thought?

• When I think that; what version of me is speaking.
  The past? The future?
  The ambition or the fear?

• What feelings do these thoughts bring?
  Sadness or Anger? Joy or Love?

Talk Less, Embody More

It’s tempting to want to agree or chime in when talking about others. Yapping about something or someone else did that “made you” feel something you didn’t like. Maybe it’s just as simple as nodding along and agreeing with your friend because you don’t want to say anything else.

That small agreement signals to the universe “I’m okay with this” Do everyone (and yourself a favour) —

Mind your business. Don’t talk about others. Let them do them. Change the subject when others around you do it. Don’t blindly agree.
If you spend your private time thinking and chatting about others; let me ask you this…

Where is the energy left for you to create your own good life? Your own future?

Be Okay With Nothing

We are constantly filling our minds, our hands and our senses with a constant stream of shit. Story-times, trauma bonding, “what I did in a day” or what everyone else is doing except thinking about who we want to be and who we already are.

I’m tired of it. I know you are too. I know to some degree we all crave the silence and peace of doing our own thing.

Often in order to create something greater than what we already have, we have to be okay with being in nothingness. Not constantly putting our attention on others. Not giving our energy away to small mundane inconveniences. You and I have to be okay with doing nothing.

• Walk without your phone, don’t bring it. No podcast. No music.

• Meditate in silence for 10 minutes every morning. Get up in the dark, don’t reach for your phone. Don’t reach for music or texts or apps. Sit there for just 10 minutes and be okay being awake in nothingness

• Focus on one thing at a time. Watch something and actually watch it. Read without your attention drifting. Listen closely to what a podcast is teaching you. Do your workout and give it your best.

I love efficacy. I love when I do one thing with precision and intention. I love when I don’t have to keep repeating myself. I love when I don’t need to do something twice because I did it well the first time. We can make so much of our time matter so much more when we practice in private. When we create who we want to be in silence. Align your aim before you throw.

With love,

Hanna

What even does it mean to “Visualize Your Future”?

There are tons of techniques out there that may get you to embody your future self. To visualize what you want 6-12 months from now, to get clarity on what your long term goals are.

I’m talking about the “future” as in anything that is outside of the present moment and ‘forward’ linear time.

That could be 60 seconds from now. 1 hour. The next paragraph you read. Or 5 years from now.

This is my favourite tool for when anxiety strikes. It allows me to SHOW MYSELF that I can handle it all. I’m sure if you are a high achiever; you enjoy the ability to show yourself that you can indeed handle what you set out to. You will do what you said you would do.

Feel free to save it if you want :)

HOW TO USE IT:

• You can use it as a waking method of reading it over and thinking about it in your mind.

• You can use it in meditation. Whether 5 minutes or 50 minutes. You can use this in all circumstances; for what you’ll be like when you open Instagram and Tiktok. For when you have to see your parents or your best friend. For how you will protect your energy

• You can use it as a morning journal. Answering every question with thought; pen to paper.

WHY?

This WORKS because it is a PROMISE to YOURSELF. You’re saying “I said I’d go to the gym and give it my best. That I would think I am strong and focus on myself” So you do just that.

You’re saying “When I open my phone and usually get all pissed off about these emails. I would feel patient, and take a breath.” So you do just that

You’re saying “When I meet up with my friend and we usually complain. I won’t do that this time” So you do just that

It is a morning promise to yourself. Because if you aren’t getting up everyday and choosing who you are; the default mode will be on and you will live by your past

It’s time to live by your future.

Love, Hanna

This is actually a little note I wrote to myself as my morning reminder for the start of my week on monday. You already have it. There is nothing you need to go outside of you to get, to chase, to have to own. You already are creating it; everything you want is already on it’s way to you. What if I told you; you don’t need to worry about it coming? Because it already is. The how and the when are not your concern. They aren’t your job to worry about

All you need to do is keep on being it, embodying it.

This of course is a little reminder for myself as well as I type it; but I realized that if I need it, perhaps you do as well. The things you are wanting; the monetary rewards of success and money and notoriety? They are already coming.

Your happiness does not depend on their arrival

In fact; it’s arrival depends on your happiness now. It is the very thing that creates that future.

I had this thought in my long silent seated meditation this morning: “I have always been this person.” This happy successful version of myself? I have always been her even when my bank account did not reflect it, even when my circumstances or job or relationships did not reflect it. I found a way to be an example of love, happiness, contentment and gratitude.

This is the emotion that is creating it in the first place. This is the very thing that draws it to you…

Do you see that version of yourself too? That version of you that lives with the utmost success and love for herself and her life? That is who you really are.

Remember to keep coming back to it and using the tools outlined here to help you when you (and I) forget.

Morning Frequency Reset

Before checking my phone or opening the blinds in the morning. I turn off my alarm and use one or two of these resets.

• Dr Joe Dispenza’s Tuning In With Your Heart Meditation: if you’re looking for something 30 minutes with really focused energy. This is it.

• Sitting Silently: Accept what comes up in a silent meditation. Let it go with kindness and feel the emotions of your future

• Frequency Music: I love the frequency music on Activations especially “Golden Energy”

Embody Lucky Girl Energy

• Speaking like my highest self: Only breaking the silence in the room when what I have to say is more powerful than what the silence brings

• Mindset Reminder: Everything is happening for a reason. This is exactly how it’s meant to be that is serving my destiny.

• How I dress: Dressing in a way that makes me feel confident and feminine. If I were to envision my future self right now how is she choosing to dress with the clothes I own. Even if I’m just working from home; putting on clothing that helps me remember who I want to be

Mindset Shift Affirmations

✦“ I am exactly where I am meant to be, everything that’s happening is in service of my greatest good”

✦ “I show up in every moment as the me who already has it”

✦ “ I don’t need to worry about what’s already guaranteed to be on it’s way”

I actually use these by writing them on sticky notes and placing it on my desk

Letting Go

• Stop Forcing Timelines: Doing so is an addiction, a game that you want to play to give yourself the illusion that you’re the one who gets to decide. You don’t.

• Control what you can: Which is your emotions, your reactions, and how you let something effect you. Everything else shifts around this

• Over Explaining myself: This is something, especially as women, that is harder to stop doing. You don’t owe anybody an explanation on how you’re doing it. All you must do is keep trusting yourself.

You don’t need to be the loudest person in the room, you don’t need to prove yourself to anyone (including you). This reality will constantly want to draw you back into the old self. Every day when you get up, and open your eyes it will want to remind you of everything you know you shouldn’t be. It will tempt you. Don’t let it.

Just keep remembering who you are being and be that version of you now.

Love,

Hanna x

What are you projecting?

Your thoughts and feelings are like one big billboard that announces to everything and everyone around you who you are being. You are always informing with your energy who you are; but through the vibe. I always say to literally everyone “but everyone can read your vibe, so why bother faking it” essentially, when you say something or act in one way but actually intend another; everyone can tell.

I understood this best through Dr Joe Dispenza’s work where he talks about our light field and how we are always informing matter itself through this field that surrounds our body. Including our body itself, this is the basis for how many people have healed or transformed their physical body (matter) through this process (energy). If we are grateful enough to be in good health; than we can use this same process for creation of reality.

Your state of being is this: How you think + How you feel = Who you are being

What this means in your daily life:

• Your facial expressions, body language and unsaid words are constantly being picked up on by other people around you

• How you feel also informs the thoughts you will think, which then contributes to your decision making

• How you react to your outer environment is based on how you are currently thinking and feeling

What it means in terms of quantum reality (world of energy)

• You use your state of being to put a giant signal out into the light field around your body that changes the environment around you including how people and things are attracted to you

• The universe doesn’t respond to what you want; it responds to who you are being

• You can change your state of being at any given moment by thinking different thoughts or changing your emotional state

• The stronger the feeling and thought; the greater effect on your reality

You create what you don’t want

Let’s take a moment to think back on a time where we found ourselves in a situation that we did not particularly like. For me; this happened recently in my relationship… while it was happening I was thinking thoughts in the back of my head like “see?! I knew this would happen this person is totally disappointing me” but upon reflection soon after this conflict; I realized I had created it and therefor it had manifested into reality itself. The two days prior to this conflict I was already coming up against feelings and thoughts like:

• What if love never actually works out for me

• What if this isn’t where I am meant to be

• Fear, losing love, not being worthy to keep it

All these thoughts + emotions are rooted in fear. This only breeds more of them. Simple; I had created a situation equal to these emotions.

I had created a situation I didn’t even like by using my thoughts and feelings to manifest an experience that reaffirmed how I was already feeling.

Creating what you do want

Imagine you can do this for your future too… If we are so quickly able to manifest an experience based on ill intent of fear, lack, anger and disappointment. Than surely we are able to manifest an experience that is equal to awe, abundance, wonder and joy. This would all come down to our state of being. How we think + How we feel = sends out the strong signal that tells our life what we want.

You can only attract what’s equal to who you are being

There is never any point in faking who we are anymore, everyone can tell what’s going on internally just based off of this signal alone. I’m sure we have all come across a friend who has verbally told us smiling that they are “just totally so fine” but we know in our hearts something isn’t. This is picking up on the vibe. Everyone can do this to you, the same way you do it to them. Even better? Life itself picks up on your vibe and reflects back to you exactly who you are being internally.

Your state of being is one big billboard for who you are and what you are wanting out of life.

Mine as well be you

You want what you want because you are you. Nobody wants exactly the mix of things you consider a “good life”. It’s only you who uniquely thinks this. If we apply everything we learned earlier:

• you can’t fake who you are

• your energy will always reveal the truth

• State of being = How you think + How you feel

It must mean then; to get that life we want. We must fully be authentic to ourselves.

I write this to put emphasis on the importance of what you do in private is even more important than who you are and what you do in front of others. What you do in “private” is never private, life is watching and picking up on your vibe all the time. Treat every moment as precious as it is meant to be; with as much intent that even the mundane is some of the most important things to do in your life. Every single moment no matter how small or minuscule it might seem is contributing to your overall life itself. Your small moments are adding to the dream or manifestation.